crying girl keeping me sane

these are all the songs i love

including notes on some i find very special

first off, music keeps me alive. it is something very special to me and in its own way is so mystical and magical. the way it moves everyone in different ways is spectactular. here r some artists, albums, songs, i rlly want to share w/ ppl

fairy

recommended song at the moment

halah by mazzy star

i feel like this is a song i will always recommend as it is something i feel like i can always go to no matter what im feeling. the lyrics are easy to relate to and i personally believe i can apply them to any situation.

important lyric

surely don't stay long im missing u now.
it's like i told u i'm over u somehow
before i close the door
i need to hear u say goodbye
baby wont u change ur mind?

yes, this is a breakup song and i'm not going through a breakup but every once in a while, i will experience something that breaks my heart in that moment.
i feel like these lyrics especially are important to me because they represent the inability to let things go. letting things go is extremely difficult to me. no matter if it is a person, a place, or a thing, or a conversation. i can't just easily let it go.

before i close the door i need to hear u say goodbye

this is the importance of closure. closure matters to many people. some don't care, but others require it. sometimes, i feel like without closure, everything is pointless. i understand the power in leaving things open ended but sometimes it gives me too much to think about. too many things to rack my brain. sometimes i run over and over again what i did wrong. what i need to do different. what i should've just avoided in the first place. being given time/room to think scares me. because there are so many possibilities. i need closure. it's better to end something with a clear and definite answer, solution, or statement. it can be so simple but sometimes it cannot. so i understand why others just avoid closure and live happily knowing they avoided giving/being given the knowledge of whats wrong. sometimes, some people just can't live with having their flaws pointed out to them. its understandable.